It is 6:30 in the morning. I have one eye on my computer screen and one at the window.  The sun is teasing me.  It has been a bit of a dry spell  (photographically speaking). I have been getting up most mornings and discovering that the sunrise is hidden behind an overcast sky. Maybe writing about it will help ease my angst.  Some mornings are perfect to get out with the camera but I am not  always free to go due to an appointment or a commitment of some kind.  I feel summer slipping through my fingers. But we cannot control the weather.  Instead, I have to wait it out like everybody else who is off work and wanting a good weather day.  Hopefully this dry spell will soon end and I will be clicking that shutter again soon.

I am a bit bummed out.  Sometimes we have to reframe our thinking when we are feeling that way.  I accidentally clipped someone’s car the other day. No one is hurt, it wasn’t that serious.  But it turned out to be a lot more costly than I expected it to be. Getting out with my camera helps me deal with things when I am feeling a little unsettled.  Hopefully I will see a nice glow coming through the window so I can lose myself for a couple of hours.
While I wait for that glow, I may as well debrief my accident. I am sure that will help me reframe my thought processes surrounding this not so Blessed event; my first collision.  It was Saturday morning and my girlfriend spontaneously called me to get together.  We decided to go to the Farmer’s Market.  It is about a 20 minute drive…more like an hour down the back roads if I have my camera.  🙂  We stumbled upon a yard sale.  I scored on a bunch of “Grandma’s House” toys.  Love those deals.  As I backed out of the driveway there was a little clunk.  My heart sunk.

OH WOW, I am out of here…the glow is happening.   Gotta go! Will be back soon…..

I’m baaaaacccck!   It is now almost 9 in the morning. A couple of hours have passed since I left you in the middle of my accident story.

Wow, what accident?  What insurance policy?  I have totally let that all go.  WHAT A MORNING OUT THERE.  Whoa,  I had to pinch myself a few times.  I went down that off-road trail I often talk about.  Wow.  Beautiful. Stunning. Exquisite. After taking many pictures,  I walked back to the car believing once again that I am forever changed by this experience.  Those sunrays!! Some things are worth waiting for. Oh those fleeting moments are just that…now you see it and now you don’t.  Sometimes just changing a lens or a camera setting takes up enough time to lose that glowing moment around those trees.  That is what I LOVE about all of this.  You only have minimal opportunity to capture some of these exquisite moments in time.  It’s not like I am in a studio and I can set up the lighting.  Mother Nature just doesn’t work that way.

I decided to go exploring a little further down the road to discover more of Mother Nature’s finest work.  I don’t know yet, but I must have taken 3oo photos this morning.  I tried to come home, I really did, but my car went straight instead of turning left. I was drawn to go down to the river before coming home.  Another wow moment…lots of wow moments.  It was just so pretty.  I took a lot of pictures of a Heron who just happened to be fishing in the mist.  He was far enough away to not be bothered by me. I walked along the muddy/rocky riverbank and that in itself was a test in balance.  My new running shoes don’t look so new anymore.    My thoughts surrounded saving my camera first should I fall.  What a ludicrous thought. Ha Ha I think that same thought every time I go there.  I hope I captured some keeper shots this morning!  Whether I did or not, it is always fun trying.

Am I bummed out now?  NOoooo.  I will still have to deal with that reality when we bring the written estimate to the Insurance Company.  But seriously?  Is this the end of the world?  Probably not.  When I first told Mike about the accident I  was a little apologetic at first…but of course he just patted me on the back and told me not to worry about.  My girlfriend and I made up a song about  it; ‘Lord, it hard to be humble, when you crash into somebody’s car’….sigh. Got to see the humour in life!  Mike and I turned it into something else and had a glass of wine with dinner that night to celebrate my first collision!  We have choices when it comes to crap like this.  We can wallow in the misery or look at it from another point of view. We choose not to wallow. It’s a collosal waste of time doing that sort of thing.  Life’s too short to spend time fretting on things we cannot change.

So what. We will figure it out.  Meanwhile we might as well look at the bright side of our life and watch for the morning glow……because IT’S ALL GOOD.  Will share one of my captured moments from with you next time.  Have a great day everybody!  Thanks for reading.

Kathy